Who Knew

I sure did not have any idea how much making jewelry would relieve some pressure and give me ME time. Each time I finish a pair of earrings (mainly earrings because lets be honest, they are the funnest for me right now) or something else, I look and it and say, "yup... LOVE IT."

Close Enough

Oh, Great God, be small enough to hear me now.
There were times when I was crying from the dark of Daniel's den;
And I have asked you once or twice if You would part the sea again.
But tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky.
Just want to know you're gonna hold me if I start to cry.
Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now.

     

Oh great God, be close enough to feel You now.

There have been moments when I could            

 not face Goliath on my own.   

And how could I forget we've march around our share of Jerichos.

But I will not be setting out a fleece for You tonight.

Just want to know that everything will be alright.

Oh, great God, be close enough to feel You now.

All praise and all the honor be;

To the God of ancient mysteries.
Whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history.
But tonight my heart is heavy,
And I cannot keep from whispering this prayer.
Are You there?



And I know You could leave writing on the              

wall that's just for me. Or send wisdom while 

I'm sleeping, like in Solomon's sweet dreams.
But I don't need the strength of Samson or a 

chariot in the end... Just Want to know that You

 still know how many hairs are on my head.
Oh, great God, be small enough to hear me now. 

Feelings

Lately I have been stuck. Feeling like I am all alone (even though I have Thomas with me, there is only so much conversation that can happen with a seven month old). Kellen has been working double duty the last couple of weeks and will be for at least one more. And I have come to realize, that I don't really have anyone that I can just go do something with anymore. And that has been really hard for me. Occasionally I will get the chance to go visit with someone, and it makes my day. And that should be good enough for me. But sometimes it isn't. Like right now, when I actually see and talk to Kellen for maybe an 1 1/2 a day, it has been really depressing to me. Granted, it isn't as bad as it use to get for me, but there are times when I just want to huddle and cry.

Well, tonight I realized that one thing that might make me feel like the above picture, is that I don't feel like I can turn to Heavenly Father for help. It is my own stupidity, but it is one of those "nope, I am okay. No need to bother you with what is going on in my life" type of things. And I also sometimes wonder if I do that because I worry (though I shouldn't) that I WON'T be important to him.

I wonder are the things I am feeling a big enough deal that I should bother him with it. Would it matter to him? 

And as I was reading today, I came across a quote that, for me, was an answer.

The single word that is most often used to describe Christ and His life is love. Everything about the life of Christ radiates love in the broadest and warmest sense of the word. He healed all who came or were brought to him. He attended to the needs of all people, including those who were physically disabled and those who were emotionally and spiritually crippled. The blind, the lame, the possessed, the proud, the adulterous, and even the dead were recipients of His healing love. He attended to their immediate and long-term needs. His teaching was another form of His healing love. He taught all who would listen, the humble and the haughty, the right and the poor, the sinner and the saint. (Robert C. Oaks, Ensign April 03)

 For the mountains shall depart, and the mountains be removed, but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith the Lord that hath mercy on thee.

I am so glad that he is always there for us waiting for us to turn to him.

Baby Weight

Ok, I have decided that I am getting rid of the baby fat NOW! I had someone ask me this weekend if I was pregnant again, which means it is time to stop procrastinating. The question I have for all of you out there, other mom's how did you lose the weight, and those who haven't had kids are welcome to comment too on the best ways you have lost extra weight. Thanks!